[ he won't. not today, not tomorrow. and if he comes to at least acknowledge it, he will fight against it. if this is his reality, he doesn't want to be part of it. he will sleep, he will dream of a better world. of home, with his father, and mother, his people. he will sleep, and it'll be warm again.
this is all just — a nightmare. a bad, terrible dream. the war had been getting to him, maybe. the endless strife between vissudha and lokapala over avidya, the inability of pretending they hadn't had their men and women captured, murdered. his reality had always been a perfect fantasy land of peace and joy.
it's fine if he pretends. it'd be better than accept this pain. the weight of his guilt that maybe, if he weren't here, at least one of his people would replace him. they'd have food, they wouldn't be in chains. it's a bold thought, but it haunts him nonetheless. ]
That one. [ kaveh jerks his head towards the divan furthest from alhaitham's bed. at least, if anything were to happen and alhaitham dared approach him in the middle of the night, he'd have a chance to wake up and defend himself, fight back, just — keep his eyes on alhaitham. he'd be a fool not to. ]
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this is all just — a nightmare. a bad, terrible dream. the war had been getting to him, maybe. the endless strife between vissudha and lokapala over avidya, the inability of pretending they hadn't had their men and women captured, murdered. his reality had always been a perfect fantasy land of peace and joy.
it's fine if he pretends. it'd be better than accept this pain. the weight of his guilt that maybe, if he weren't here, at least one of his people would replace him. they'd have food, they wouldn't be in chains. it's a bold thought, but it haunts him nonetheless. ]
That one. [ kaveh jerks his head towards the divan furthest from alhaitham's bed. at least, if anything were to happen and alhaitham dared approach him in the middle of the night, he'd have a chance to wake up and defend himself, fight back, just — keep his eyes on alhaitham. he'd be a fool not to. ]