[ had he expected it? no, of course not. what does he even expect out of alhaitham, to begin with? they had told him one thing: he'd be alhaitham's bed slave. he had not, at any point, done anything of the kind. alhaitham hasn't touched him. alhaitham hasn't forced him to sleep on his bed. he hadn't even used his body to warm his bed, at best.
the lack of purpose is crushing. he doesn't hate the faux freedom, the way he's not, frankly, violated, but he hates not being able to do anything.
until alhaitham speaks, as always. it's the first time he's given a reason to do anything. ]
You weren't lying. [ he had genuinely though it'd be a lie. why would he not? ] Why? Answer me at least this one time. Why are you letting me meet up with her?
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i went to sleep!!!! i was good!!!
Date: 2023-04-14 09:50 pm (UTC)the lack of purpose is crushing. he doesn't hate the faux freedom, the way he's not, frankly, violated, but he hates not being able to do anything.
until alhaitham speaks, as always. it's the first time he's given a reason to do anything. ]
You weren't lying. [ he had genuinely though it'd be a lie. why would he not? ] Why? Answer me at least this one time. Why are you letting me meet up with her?