[ the weight of his gaze speaks words that kaveh understands, and he replies with that selfsame smile, weak and forced, small and empty. it says i'm sorry, and kaveh needs not voice the words. he knows.
it is unfair. kaveh is never proud of it. had he not been born with eleazar, he thinks, that sentence would have annoyed him. he would not have laid down pride to beg, and would not have asked such a thing of alhaitham, to begin with. a kaveh who is born with eleazar has no choice. he knows the effects he has on alhaitham, knows the strength of his words. he avoids saying them, time and time again. avoids speaking of his fate, of the inevitable day that he dies, earlier than his friends, way before alhaitham. please is, at least, something he can voice.
he is not proud of it, still.
his fingers curl around alhaitham's, in response. i'm sorry. ]
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it is unfair. kaveh is never proud of it. had he not been born with eleazar, he thinks, that sentence would have annoyed him. he would not have laid down pride to beg, and would not have asked such a thing of alhaitham, to begin with. a kaveh who is born with eleazar has no choice. he knows the effects he has on alhaitham, knows the strength of his words. he avoids saying them, time and time again. avoids speaking of his fate, of the inevitable day that he dies, earlier than his friends, way before alhaitham. please is, at least, something he can voice.
he is not proud of it, still.
his fingers curl around alhaitham's, in response. i'm sorry. ]
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