... Have you ever regretted something before, Alhaitham?
[ the answer, he thinks, is no. alhaitham, he knows well, never does anything that he does not want to do. a man so in touch with his own wants, needs, and feelings has no room to regret. if he wishes to pursue something, he will. failure and success are both part of life. what need is there to regret, then, he would ask.
but kaveh, who tends to do things that he does not want to do, who is not half as in touch with his own wants, and needs, and feelings, has plenty of room to regret. he does. he has. the weight it provides is not one anyone should ever be burdened to feel. regret is haunting. regret is demonizing. regret has made him sick, has made him scared.
and kaveh, who does not have much time left for him, should not have time to regret. he will crumble under its weight before the eleazar takes him. if he does not pursue his selfish wants and meaningless needs, when else will he?
the wind is gentle. the sun paints sumeru the most vibrant colors. kaveh, too, wishes to be part of this painting. ]
Scholars should always seek the knowledge that comes with experience. We may read accounts of Driyoshes who have had to camp out in the woods of Mondstadt or fish in the tenebrous waters surrounding Inazuma, but nothing is more valuable than living through such experiences yourself.
... It could be fun, besides. Isn't that what matters the most?
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[ the answer, he thinks, is no. alhaitham, he knows well, never does anything that he does not want to do. a man so in touch with his own wants, needs, and feelings has no room to regret. if he wishes to pursue something, he will. failure and success are both part of life. what need is there to regret, then, he would ask.
but kaveh, who tends to do things that he does not want to do, who is not half as in touch with his own wants, and needs, and feelings, has plenty of room to regret. he does. he has. the weight it provides is not one anyone should ever be burdened to feel. regret is haunting. regret is demonizing. regret has made him sick, has made him scared.
and kaveh, who does not have much time left for him, should not have time to regret. he will crumble under its weight before the eleazar takes him. if he does not pursue his selfish wants and meaningless needs, when else will he?
the wind is gentle. the sun paints sumeru the most vibrant colors. kaveh, too, wishes to be part of this painting. ]
Scholars should always seek the knowledge that comes with experience. We may read accounts of Driyoshes who have had to camp out in the woods of Mondstadt or fish in the tenebrous waters surrounding Inazuma, but nothing is more valuable than living through such experiences yourself.
... It could be fun, besides. Isn't that what matters the most?